She smiled back at him, letting her hand drop as she fiddled with the knot.
"No it's... it's good." She murmured, still toying with the rope even as she shifted positions, aiming to lean herself back against Finnick and slouch while she untied and tied the rope. "Show me more? If you want."
Finnick shifts so she's sitting between his legs and leaning back on his chest, his hands in front of her with his rope. He leans against his headboard.
"Mm, no, first practice that one. Over and over. It needs to become muscle memory."
He himself also ties that knot, over and over. Tying, untying. The meditative process begins now, here, in bed. With him holding her, and something for them to focus on, something to distract her.
She was almost amazed by how well it worked. How soothing it was to just mindlessly tie and untie a simple knot. Of course it helped that Finnick was there, warm and alive and still here with her.
It did not make her forget Lehna - nothing ever would - but it helped to keep her grounded. After what felt like ages, she let her hands drop again, knot tied tight between her fingers, and turned her head to nose into the curve of Finnick's neck.
Night Sky loved easily, and sometimes she wished she didn't. Sometimes she wondered if it would be easier to steel her heart from the heartache when she lost people she loved so dearly. But then he said it back, and all she could think about was how warm it made her feel; how safe she felt in his arms and how perfect his kiss was. The pain was worth it for this - it had been worth it for the time she had with Lehna, and it had to be worth it for the time, however long or little, she would have with him, too.
She raised a hand to cup his cheek, his kiss returned with a soft hum against his lips. she parted just enough to speak, to make sure he knew in case the world whisked him away next. "I'll always love you."
Finnick feels similarly. Losing Annie, and then losing Eren, hurt so fucking much, and still does. It would be easy to close himself off to love entirely. But that would be denying himself so many beautiful things, transient as they are. He can't imagine denying himself this easy, open love with Daeleth, nor denying her, for that matter. She deserves this.
"Me, too."
And then, with a little dryness:
"I never fucking stop."
It's true. Everyone he has loved, he still loves, regardless of worlds they're in, regardless if they're alive or dead. He always will, for better or worse, no matter the pain it causes him.
She smiled and stroked her thumb along the curve of his cheek. "Never." She agreed. Worlds apart or right here, right now, she never stopped loving any of them either. She missed Lehna and Halsin and, gods, Connor from so long ago he had not even made it to this world but he was always there in the corner of her mind. Wedged in her heart forever just the same as everyone else.
"I wish the universe had been kinder to you, my heart." She murmured. "But I am glad it brought us together, at least."
That makes his eyes misty. He curls more around her, his lips to her shoulder, and speaks around the lump in his throat.
"I... Appreciate you saying that, love. I wish it was kinder to both of us. But we're both strong people alone, and even stronger together. We'll make it through."
She would love to lie in bed with him and cry all day, actually, and she very nearly said as much aloud. Just lie and rot in his arms. But then she thought about it. Lehna wouldn't want her doing this.
"I like the beach." She murmured. "We can go to the beach."
He'd definitely be rotting if he was her, but a change of scenery seems like a good idea. She does love the outdoors, and a swim might be nice for her.
Tempting as it was, in the end she knew Lehna would want her to live her life instead of rotting away in bed for gods knows how long. Night Sky nodded.
"Thank you, my heart." She murmured, settling into him for now. They could take their trip to the beach soon.
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"No it's... it's good." She murmured, still toying with the rope even as she shifted positions, aiming to lean herself back against Finnick and slouch while she untied and tied the rope. "Show me more? If you want."
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"Mm, no, first practice that one. Over and over. It needs to become muscle memory."
He himself also ties that knot, over and over. Tying, untying. The meditative process begins now, here, in bed. With him holding her, and something for them to focus on, something to distract her.
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It did not make her forget Lehna - nothing ever would - but it helped to keep her grounded. After what felt like ages, she let her hands drop again, knot tied tight between her fingers, and turned her head to nose into the curve of Finnick's neck.
"I love you."
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The words make his breath catch, and he pauses his tying, putting his knot down as well.
"I love you, too."
It's easy to say. It's easy to feel. She's easy to love. He wraps arms around her middle, tilts his head down to kiss her.
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Night Sky loved easily, and sometimes she wished she didn't. Sometimes she wondered if it would be easier to steel her heart from the heartache when she lost people she loved so dearly. But then he said it back, and all she could think about was how warm it made her feel; how safe she felt in his arms and how perfect his kiss was. The pain was worth it for this - it had been worth it for the time she had with Lehna, and it had to be worth it for the time, however long or little, she would have with him, too.
She raised a hand to cup his cheek, his kiss returned with a soft hum against his lips. she parted just enough to speak, to make sure he knew in case the world whisked him away next. "I'll always love you."
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"Me, too."
And then, with a little dryness:
"I never fucking stop."
It's true. Everyone he has loved, he still loves, regardless of worlds they're in, regardless if they're alive or dead. He always will, for better or worse, no matter the pain it causes him.
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"I wish the universe had been kinder to you, my heart." She murmured. "But I am glad it brought us together, at least."
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"I... Appreciate you saying that, love. I wish it was kinder to both of us. But we're both strong people alone, and even stronger together. We'll make it through."
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She felt the tears coming again, inhaled deep and sighed it out shakily. "Did you... do you have plans today?"
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It's not like Finnick does anything remotely important with his time at the moment. He'll have a job soon, but not yet.
"I'm here as long as you need." He tightens his arms around her middle, making himself basically her backpack.
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"I like the beach." She murmured. "We can go to the beach."
can prob wrap soon? Will tag camping l8r tn
He'd definitely be rotting if he was her, but a change of scenery seems like a good idea. She does love the outdoors, and a swim might be nice for her.
He kisses her temple.
Works for me
"Thank you, my heart." She murmured, settling into him for now. They could take their trip to the beach soon.